frustrated

So I really need to vent. Sorry to anyone who reads this. You can stop reading now. Why is it so hard to lose weight? For the first time in my life I am truly trying my hardest...doing everything right. I haven't drank mt dew for 6 weeks. That is a freaking miracle. I haven't had anything but water for 6 weeks. With a couple of special occasions...like Mike's birthday. I had cherry coke. I have cut back quite a bit on my cheese consumption. Yes, I love cheese. And I can't cut it out completely. It is pretty much my only source of protein...since I have cut out peanut butter. I am eating more vegetables. I eat a bowl of cereal every morning instead of toast with peanut butter or waffles. Plus I use to drink hot chocolate pretty much every morning and I haven't had any. I try not to have sweets, but Mike is the devil and tempts me with ice cream and cheesecake. I haven't been religious on the treadmill, but I get on it at least 3 times a week. And then I am on there for at least 20 minutes. Plus I have been taking the kids on walks pretty much any day it is warm enough to venture outside. So here is my real problem. The first 3 weeks I lost 5 pounds. I was so happy. Yes, it is slow, but I am doing it right, and 5 pounds in 3 weeks is pretty good. Well, the last 3 weeks I haven't lost an ounce. Not one. I am getting so discouraged. I have talked to people who stop drinking their favorite soda and without doing anything else they lose 15 to 20 pounds. I was hoping for that, but I wasn't expecting it. I was expecting to at least lose something. I had a goal set for at least a pound a week. But nothing for 3 weeks. Mike is getting pissed at me because I am focusing so much on the number. I really am not focusing on "the number". I just weigh myself to see some kind of reward for the work and sacrifice that I have been doing. I am seriously so close to giving up. I know that genetics are really really against me being skinny, but it can be done right? Or am I just going to be fat no matter how much I work? I know that everyone hits a wall in weight loss, were they stall for a little while, but I always thought it was much later in the process. Not after 3 weeks and 5 pounds. Sorry for anyone that just read that. I am glad that I can vent somewhere. Mike just gets mad at me.

Lately

It has been a while since I have been on here, so I guess I should catch everyone up.
We went to Vegas a couple of weekends ago. Hudson, Cambree and I rode down with my brother-in-law Pat. Mike went down there for work ( for a whole week), so he was already down there when we got there. We went down because Jeff and Christina (my bro-in-law and his wife), from South Carolina, were going to be there. Poor Pat. I don't think he wants kids anymore. I was so dumb and forgot my stroller. Dumb. We walked a lot in Vegas. Hudson walked a little and wanted to be carried quite a bit...totally understandable. Anyway, it wore the poor little guy out, so by the second day he was pretty cranky. I don't think Pat had too much compassion and like a lot of people do, forgot just how little Hudson is. Yes, he talks better than a lot of 5 and 6 year olds I know, but he is only 3 and his little legs are only 3. Anyway, Hudson pitched a couple of fits and I think Pat regretted taking us with him.
Anyway, so down in Vegas we were able to see Mike for a little while and Hudson got to see what daddy does for work. He was able to take a couple of hours off to go to dinner with Jeff and Christina and then we walked to the Bellagio. I loved seeing Jeff and Christina. I wish that they lived closer. I hated leaving Vegas. I almost cried a few times just knowing that I was getting further and further away from Mike. He was going to be down there for 5 more days. Pretty pathetic, I know. Sorry I don't have any pictures to post. I hate our camera. I didn't even take it because I hate it so much. I took a couple of pictures with my phone, but still have not figured out how to get them off my phone.

We bought an annual pass to the Living Planet Aquarium. It is ok, but after going to the aquarium in Charleston, SC, it wasn't that great. I was very surprised that Hudson put his hand in the water to try to feel the fish and the stingrays. And he did touch a starfish. I think we will definately use the membership since it is about 2 blocks away from Grandpa and Grandma's house.

Well, that is what has been going on lately. I wish that I had something profound or exciting, but really my life is full of dirty diapers, cartoons and chicken nuggets.